All I See
Author: Maeve
Disclaimer: TWW belongs to AS, JW, WB, and NBC.
Spoilers: Everything with Andi being pregnant I guess.
Up to fourth season I suppose.
AN: I’m gonna get flamed by Kells for this one!
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He drags himself from the sweat slick bed, refusing her eyes. Because they’re not blue. They’re not the C. Jean blue. He draws on his pants, sliding them over traitorous hips. Buttoning the fly that should have never come unbuttoned.
“Toby.” it’s the same way she spoke his name when they were married. A bit of a nag, and bit of a pull, and a sort of strength that he thought would match his CJ’s. But their strengths had never matched.
“I’m leaving.”
Neither did their eyes.
Or their bodies.
He pulled his eyes across her freshly slickened sin, watching her chest still rise and fall, plummeting in upset breath. There’s a glance of knowing hate in her eyes, one he’s recognized for years now. He studies his ex-wife a moment, feeling her touch still burn into his skin. He blinks his eyes closed and all he sees are CJ’s tears.
But she’d never cry, he knows.
She’s too strong.
“You’re going to her.”
He flinches at the wincing and drastic tone of her voice, watches as her back rolls towards him. Her longs tresses slip the pillow that he’d just rested his head on. He can still feel the heat of the pillow’s friction as she’d slid over him. With a steady hand he dips his fingers down the arch of her back, rolling the pad of his thumb against the dip in her spine.
“Andrea.”
His breath is the only sound in the room.
“Go Toby.”
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He’s got his real strength in his office, her calf swinging over her other leg as she reads over some random comments he’s written. He’s smiling unknowingly when she laughs to him. Her fingers tumbling lovingly against his words. Her lovely eyes washing his words.
He moves to speak but Ginger is in the doorway, pointing to the phone. “Andi.”
He sighs softly, feeling the snap of CJ’s glance as she looks to him. He refuses her eyes just as he refused his ex-wife’s only weeks ago. A simple refusal of a glance - because if she saw his eyes she’d know.
He was sure she already knew. It was written on his skin every time they made love. It was written in the paths that Andi’s fingers had made.
He lifts the phone with a shuddering breath, “Andrea I - ”
“I’m pregnant Toby.”
All he can see is CJ’s tears.
So he doesn’t look up…and he doesn’t tell her.
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